Bucket List

Have you ever had the odd sensation of wanting to laugh and cry in the same breath? Doesn't it completely baffle your mind, that both feelings which tend to be stemming from generally polar events wish to occur at the same time? Do you feel the dark humour or genuine glee and tears of joy or silencing sorrow, battling inwardly, to determine which shall prevail and in the process, letting none escape? It sucks. (*giggles* *feels the urge to cry for giggling at something so stupid when something so profoundly bothersome is in mind*) So. I think I'm a mess of emotions in this moment. I find myself travelling back to the time I wrote my first post. Inspired by a movie that I had the grateful pleasure of watching with a friend, I promised to myself that I will begin this quest to unravel my wound up strings, brush out my dustiest corners and face the frank riddle I am, with a straight spine, unapologetic and admiring of the person I am after I discover her. I was enchanted, ent...

She didn’t want to talk anymore. She had always loved to swear. It brought out the intensity behind every feeling that reverberated through her tiny body and found pleasure in being expelled with the force and anger of a cuss. It helped her get through life because more often than not, it’s all that people deserved to be told. ‘Glorify or vilify them but you can’t ignore them’ was a loose coin rattling inside the tin can that was her head and all she wanted to do was scream.  For, ignore them, she couldn’t. But love them was something she yearned for. Yet to keep herself sane, she tried to calm herself down, relax, tell herself it’s okay but it just wasn’t working anymore. She didn’t know for sure if it was just reality of the world catching up to her or everything in it that cut her to the bone, that affected her so deeply. She just wanted the world to stop existing the way it did and become a good one. She wanted people to be honest, consistent, loyal and reliable. She wa...

"Have the courage to follow your heart and intuition.They somehow already know what you truly want to become." Steve Jobs And there it is, a splash of paint on the glorious white, blinking against the sun, turning to shades of red. The auburn capturing the gold of the light, ablaze against the calm azure and just when your eyes soak her in, you realize her eyes are brighter, just as the painter meant. Coal and flecked with sparkling life, she captures your attention and lets the small smile playing at the corner of her lips mock you for thinking you were immune to her captivating charm. After all, who doesn't want to witness life in all its zeal, thrilling you into action and urging you to chase your dreams with the wind of freedom billowing through your hair as you grin, inching closer by the step? And so, she propels your spirit and captures your heart for the innocence her crow-feet captured eyes can't hide and compels you to fall in love with the richness of...